I know everyone hates on the Kardashian family but I think that anyone who can turn their last name into a successful brand which transcends product category deserves at least some level of respect. Also its so lovely to see a family who are so close and have fun together, why would anyone waste time hating on that.
Watched Carnage (2011) today. Very decent comedy, but not in the typical sense. I love watching film adaptions of plays and hope one day I will get to see more live theatre. To me, a play brings a level of simplicity which opens the door for character study - Carnage did not disappoint in this way. Kate Winslet is arguably my favourite actor, so I’m generally partial to anything she is in, but the entire cast is excellent. Recommend! But don’t expect anything too obvious. I get the feeling most people would watch this and find it stupid.
Wake me up when September ends
Today has been such a big day for me
and my brain is utterly exhausted. The work that I am doing is so incredibly demanding that I can’t even begin to explain the level of critical analysis I’m expected to show. My professor constantly pushes for more and more and I’m trying to reach the depth he’s looking for - theory that would be seen in the mind of a senior manager toward the end of their career. And it’s so tough. My brain is just exhausted. On a personal level I feel overloaded with other thoughts and events and right now I’m experiencing issues with stress management and am trying to analyse that too. and I just feel like there’s often inconsistency when I get home. I wish others could understand what it’s like for me trying to manage so much. It’s too hard for me to deal with mood swings on top of everything else I honestly just feel like my brain is pushed to the absolute limits right now professionally and personally and it just reinforces my constant issue of wanting to live by myself. Unfortunately that’s just not possible right now but I’m so so tired of trying to cover every single thing and I’m slipping. I’m forgetful and out of sync with my sleeping and eating routines. I want to push myself harder in my coursework ad have booked a meeting to discuss my work in depth with my professor so I can improve my work. I’m not complaining. This is my choice. I’m not wasting it. I just wish it would be understood just how damn hard I’m trying right now.
family note
A mother should never have to lose a child. To lose a child who has had a troubled life seems even more cruel. Wanted to write this to acknowledge the pain they must be feeling. My thoughts to those lost and those remaining.
Watch your thoughts for they become words. Watch your words for they become actions. Watch your actions for they become…habits. Watch your habits, for they become your character. And watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.
4.02
Constantly have this stuck in my head.
